want someone

what would if feel like to have a best friend someone that is always there for you no matter what some body to trust and someone to kick you in the ass when you needed it. All I want is a best friend to help me get over this horrible thing that this man did to me, help me get back my self I want me back. I think that I'm a good friend I think that I'm a good girlfriend. what wrong with me why don't I have either.