I have know on to talk to so I'm just going to talk to this computer. I feel like I'm never going to be happy I have all this ideas that I want but I cant see it really happening like the one in only thing I want More in the world is to get married and have a family but I can see it happening to me I get so jealous see my friend and people I went to school with be married or have kids I think what I'm I doing wrong when will that be me? why do I have this stupid disease. I feel like I'm taking two steps back the doctor increased my my meds to day they better help or I don't know what I'm going to do I was doing good not smoking weed or taking pain killers up that all I want to do that the only thing that makes me happy