It was been over a year since the rape but it feels like the first day, I see a doctor every to weeks and take 2 anti depressants and ativan for the ptsd but they have not worked. I feel like I am never going to be happy.after the rape I lost all of my friend but one the girl that I was my best friend it was her house where I was raped at. After the rape I went back to work that was a bad idea I would just cryed and could not work full days I also had to hid it from my coworkers but they new something was wrong.
SoI decided to get a new job I loved my new job I had meet what I thought was a great guy I was moving out. I thought that that every thing was going to get better but soon after moving out I was laid off, the guy that I was dating told me that it was going to be OK that he would help me out and pay my bills but a week later he was laid off to. that's when I shared with my boyfriend that I was raped he was supported and told me that he was going to help me through it.

Then me and my roommate (best friend) got in to this huge fight that ended a long time friendship then the worst part of all the guy that said that loved me and wasn't never going to leave me left me with out saying a word he just stoped awsering my calls and texted.I was so lost I had no friend and no boyfrind I did know what I was going to do? thats when I decided to go to school so far i have been in school for 5 month it has been a very hard thing dealing with ptsd and school and paying rent I was bearly making it.2 weeks ago I decide to move out of the apartment and back in with my parents so I could finish up school and start over.